Pre run state of mind:
Stressed! Upset! More stressed! More upset! You get the picture.
Tonight I walked in the door from work, still on the phone with my second unruly client of the night. While listening to said client’s list of excuses for something or another, I immediately start gazing around the house making mental notes of all the chores that desperately need tending to. I hear the husband listening to a bar review lecture, and my thoughts move to dinner; what am I going to feed him? I finally convince said client, who is on house arrest, that he is not too busy to meet with me tomorrow. I felt we had come to some sort of agreement, so I got off the phone. I will be out-of-town tomorrow interviewing trial clients, which means I will be at home tomorrow night typing memorandums from said interviews.
The clock reads 7 p.m. I feel stressed, upset, and more stressed. Not just from work. There is always more. I am a complaining, mundane mess right now. I feel my optimism bleeding out of me with each “to-do” I add to my list. I stop. I am still. I come face to face with the bloody awful truth: I am not enough. I immediately log off from the world.
Post run state of mind:
I run out to grab the hubs a pizza. I would normally make him fend for himself, but my no. 1 priority is making sure he studies for the bar and has little else on his plate. I foresee my homemaking skills improving over the next two months. I grab my shoes and hit the gym. I leave my phone in the car. I run. I run. I keep running. I am typically miserable while running the first mile, but I reach a point (could this be the runner’s high?) where I feel unstoppable. I sweat out all my stress and tension from a hard days work. I find a huge smile on my face and in my heart while I push and defy all my limits.
It is amazing what 30 minutes of running can do for ones state of mind.
Night & Day!
I dedicate this song to all the stress that attempts to take over my life…